Saturday, 28 December 2019

I Promise...

2019 has been a wild, rollercoaster of a year to say the least. There’s been a lot of ups, a lot of downs and quite frankly, not enough down time in-between. It’s been hectic, chaotic, messy, closed doors, opened chapters, new friends, new love, tears, struggles and everything in-between.

At the end of 2018, I told myself that 2019 was truly going to be ‘my year’. A year whereby everything falls into place. A year that brings me nothing happiness, joy and love. Don’t get me wrong, these things have happened and come in abundance at times but at the price of plenty of fuck-ups too.

The biggest struggle for me this year has been my mental health. My anxiety has gotten the best of me for months on end and unfortunately taken over who I am as a person. I’m not going to make this a blog post about what’s gone wrong, what could have been and what I would change but rather a promise to myself and those to whom I love on what 2020 will bring.

I’m crap at New Years Resolutions... but aren’t we all? It seems like a 100m sprint whereby you absolutely must start your resolution on the strike of midnight and race to complete it within an allotted time frame. It’s bullshit really. I think it’s great to set goals, to do lists, bucket lists and all the rest of it but rather than it seemingly look like a simple goal it gets created into some heavy, pressurised target and if you don’t meet the deadline then you’re deemed a failure. So, instead of setting “resolutions” where it carries the title that things must change and be better, I’m setting small, simple goals and tasks to make my year of 2020 a much easier ride. 

I’m not going to sit and list my specific goals for 2020 as they are personal and private to me but what I will share are my promises. Promises to myself and those I love...

I promise to...

- Communicate effectively with those around me when I’m struggling with my anxiety/how I’m feeling 
- Try my best to stop overthinking every. single. thing.
- To stop caring what other people think and be myself wholeheartedly 
- Let go of the past and the negativity that comes with it 
- Be more present: to not be glued to my phone
- Start seeing the best in everything and everyone like I used to
- Consciously choose to forgive and forget, for good
- Practice gratitude, the Law of Attraction and affirmations more in 2020
- Fill my year with holidays, festivals, dinners, breakfasts and brunches, fun activities and things to do at each and every chance I get
- Be more spontaneous 
- Get back in the gym 
- Be my happy, confident self once again 

These are just a few promises that link in with my goals to help me live a happier, more relaxed and positive year. Overall, 2019 has been a huge learning curve for me. I’m going to be stepping into a new week, a new year, a new decade and a new chapter with an open mind, happy heart and positive outlook. I’m so ready for a fresh start. 

I can’t wait for more happiness, love and adventures and to be able to share that with the love of my life. 2020 will be the best year yet, I can just tell.

Until next time...

Elle x